over the year..

watched 'Night at the museum' last nite with Janet, Wendy & boby last evening.. it was very good! dun mind watching it again... :)

Just woke up not long.. kinda disappointed that i'm not sick.. m sorta in the ' i wanna feel miserable' mood..

Last night after Janet dropped mie off at home, i walked around my neighbourhood and finally settled down at a basketball court nearby to soak in the rain.. Ja probably will wanna scold mie when she read this.. hurhur.. but mie needed to just .. let it out somehow..

Soaking in the rain.. i force myself to remember the events of the past year.. i had zero achievements, and seemed to have managed to be a disappointment in many ways, many areas, and to many people... I needed to think back.. and cry..

I have realised that though i know i can never be perfect, and i thought i have been trying hard to be there for the people i care about... i have always fallen short. I have learned that though everyone knows no one can be perfect, but there are still expectations to be met.

Moving on..
though it will not be on the back of my mind, i will never allow myself to forget about it.. regrets..but there wasnt anyway around it.
i will strive to stop over-promise and under-deliver.. take mie as i am.. forgive mie for my short comings.. this i say to you my friends, i will try put my heart in everything i do..
i will learn to live for myself.. and not plan my days arouond other people.. one thing t a time, so that my attention is to one alone and that they will not feel short changed.. those that are dear to mie.