Tricked again.. So pissed..

Yesterday called him..coz concerned about how he is.. JA asked me is it i still like him? I m very clear on that lor... me n him CANNOT be together.. but i still concern about him as a friend.. some more coz of hi sms the night b4..

i m so silly... with regards to his sms, my friends used the terms "bullshit" and "what a load of crap".. maddie's version was '狗改不了吃屎'... why i still go worry my little head about how he is doing.. is he really very depressed.. will he go do anything stupid...?!!!! End up.. he still sleeping alot - can sleep - watching telebe and 4D.. life going on for him still..! *crap..*

Is not that i wish to see him unhappy or anything happen to him.. but.. sighz.. pissed..

WH the heck he send me sms like those for?!!! I should have learnt my lessons mah.. so stupid.. in the beginning, he oso sms me stupid things.. next day i call him n check on him he will deny sending or make excuse that he sent mebbe coz too drunk...

Last night was in a pretty bad mood... been feeling sian since leaving the house to meet JA, Derek, Jon, etc..Pissed off partly coz of him bah.. feel stupid.. that i actually lose sleep the nite b4.. even cry coz i feel bad... shitz... Generally.. i was just in a bad mood bah... Mood swinging..